…eLLa BeLLa BamBina…

summer’s coming up (summer here that is) & a lot of friends are talking about going on vaca… there’s talks of palawan, galera, bora, cebu, bohol, subic, even phuket… & the list can go on & on… personally, i wanted to go to cebu to visit keith (my old tl) coz i miss him dayum much… but if i go there, i’d be going by myself!

so ok, i will go with guia & carrel to bora if they finally decide to actually go & will be enjoying the beach & the sun’s rays over there for the very first time.. & the plus side of it is that i’ll be going with 2 good friends of mine…

can’t wait! can’t wait! the only thing is… the budget (of course) can’t be too high.. so if u guys have any suggestions about places to stay, & etc… pls. let me knowm aiight? thanx!

a LOT of things have happened during the past few weeks.. i’ve met so many different & interesting people plus i’ve learned a few things here & there….

i met my (then) co-trainee who has become a good friend of mine. she introduced me to the "i-pod with video". you’re probably thinking, "What black hole did she just escape from?" I know what an i-pod is of course, i just haven’t been interested in it that much… that is, until minnette showed me all the trailers she’d downloaded & all the neat things (like downloading the most recent episode of smallville & watching it on ur handy-dandy i-pod) you could do with it… now, i’m hooked… and badly wanting one.

since we (ryan & i) have been thinking of buying a car, i’ve been on the lookout for car prices these past few weeks… last week while having lunch at gerry’s, minnette found this magazine that had all the 2006 car prices & we were able to find the specific cars i was looking for. so now, i’ve been able to compute how much each car is… i’ve shown it to my bei… although we’re still looking at our options, at least we’re getting somewhere…

-to be continued-

There’s definitely something goin’ on with my luck. For the past few weeks,my lucky streak (or unlucky, depending on how you wanna look at it)  has been a rollercoaster ride.

My usually normal life has been filled with unexpected events that have defnitely caught me off-guard. Read on and you just might be surprised.

A few weeks back, naatrasan ako ng jeep & trust me, it hurt. The impact was minute, but somehow the back pains that it resulted in still haunts me when it rains.

second song for today that i just wanted to share…

it’s basically for any two people who are so in love with each other… (kinda cheesy, right?) but hey, it sounds great, it’s got good lyrics & it’s simply perfect for couples… so, what more can u ask for?

the song is by alice peacock & john mayer & it’s done accoustic so it really gives a romantic vibe… enjoy the lyrics….. Ü

Your touch is electric
I felt it the first time you held me
The way we connected
So easily
I’ve tried to define it
Searched for the perfect phrase
I’ve tried to describe it
In a million different ways

It’s joy, it’s ecstasy
It’s truth, it’s destiny
And even love is not enough
To tell you how you make me feel
There’s only one word for this, oh

I’ve got to admit it
You took my heart by surprise
Don’t know how you did it
But baby, I’ve never felt so alive

It’s joy, it’s ecstasy
It’s truth, it’s destiny
And even love is not enough
To tell you how you make me feel
There’s only one word for this
It’s bliss

Hey now that I know what the future holds
As long as you’re here with me

Oh, it’s joy, it’s ecstasy
It’s truth, it’s destiny
And even love is not enough
To tell you how you make me feel, oh yeah

Cause it’s faith, it’s honesty
It’s life, it’s everything
To say our love is not enough
To tell you how you make me feel
(Show me how you make me feel)
It’s in your smile, in your kiss
(Show me how you make me feel)
It’s the reason that I exist
(Show me how you make me feel)
There’s only one word for this
(Show me how you make me feel)
It’s bliss
Yeah, it’s bliss
This is bliss

so i was driving myself home, when the follwing song played on the radio… yes, it’s sort of country music & not a lotta people like country music (i think i got it from my dad.. euch!) but when u listen to the lyrics… heartbroken or not, it’ll definitely stick with you… hope u get to hear it soon… but anyways, here are the lyrics:

Rascal Flatts: "What Hurts the Most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

surprisingly, tuesday was the first day that i didn’t head to the mall before thinking of going home to catch some much needed zzzzzzzs. Thinking back, that decision was pretty wise. Apart from it being a very windy day, once Ryan & i were safely on the jeep, it started to pour. We got off near Jollibee as always & before I could get to the tricycle terminal, my beige pants were soaking wet from the thighs down (I was carrying an umbrella AND avoiding the puddles, believe me). It looked like I had waded into a baby pool by the time i got home & for the rest of the day & well into the night, I continued to hear the rain beating down on our roof & the wind whistling through the cracks in the windows.

Although it was my rest day, I decided to turn in early to catch up on sleep that i’d been lacking for the last week. I slept a total of 11hours, which is definitely record breaking for me. After lunch, we headed n over to Taguig where we joined the festivities of the fiesta held every July 26. when the procession went by, we threw crisps, suman, candies, coins, & water to those who were following the saints through the towns. At one point, the crowd in front of our relative’s house got so rowdy that people lost their slippers, children got stamped on, & people got pushed on the walls below us. Exhausted & with nothing left to throw, we headed back home & again, i slept early to make up for the days I didn’t get enough sleep.

Just now, Ryan made a surprise call while doing his chores at home & since I wasn’t expecting any phone calls (he had told me he’d call me after his chores), I stared at the phone for a while thinking who could be calling. Finally, I picked up the phone & found that it was him, telling me that although he said he’d call later, he realized "na miss na miss" na nya ko so he called sooner. Awww.. love you bei… Hearing that, of course, made my day…

argh! ok, so as usual, miss philippines won the most photogenic award but she didn’t even get into the top 20, dammit! i was really hoping that she would at least be picked to be one of the lucky 20, but my hopes were quashed right from the very beginning.

I did have other favourites of course, them being miss switzerland & miss japan… miss japan’s national costume was so rockin’ & so different that it definitely caught my attention… astig!

plus she can speak 4 different languages!!! while i just thought that miss switzerland was really pretty & i loved her evening gown too…

I was so excited when they were both picked to be in the top 5, but yet again, i got excited over nothing. In the end, ms. puerto rico was crowned miss universe 2006 while miss japan was 1st runner up… & till now, i still cant believe that puerto rico won…. i just thought that miss japan was more beautiful & fitting BUT that’s just my opinion……

so many things have happened in the past few weeks that i don’t even know where to begin….

i have just turned 21 so i’m definitely excited about that… that does mean that i’m a year older, BUT it also means i am finally legal to do as i please… technically that is… hehe…

but of course my birthday wasn’t exactly as i pictured it. i did have a mini celebration on the 5th with a few friends & family members & it was fantabulous (thanx to those who made it!) with the usual singing, dancing, chika, alcohol, & cameras flashing….

it was also the day my grandma came home from the hospital… i even remember showing her ryan’s gifts & her comment that the caricature made my face seem to be even bigger than it was (note: she no longer had a voice, but she still managed to tease me), but she made a compliment about it. she said that it was a beautful drawing & it was very detailed. i also remember saying goodnight when everyone had already left.

i remember seeing her sat down eating oatmeal the next day & her greeting me with her half smile & chinita eyes. I energetically greeted her, "Good Morning ‘Nay!!!" & she just smiled…i went downstairs for my daily dose of morning chika with my titas & went back upstairs to browse the web. It was a very routine day until my tita tried to clean my grandma’s tube (i’m not really sure what it’s called) & my grandma complained that she was doing it wrong (how? she was waving her hands about). I then took her & my other tita to the hospital just outside our village to have the nurses there clean it for us. As i continually looked for a parking space, wen to the atm, & followed them inside, the doctors were saying that the tube had fallen out & we had to take her to her doctor to fix it. when they left, I just stayed behind to catch up on some sleep. It wasn’t until early evening that my dad woke me up & told to me to go to the hospital coz my grandma was having an attack… I walked quickly & got there looking for my mum & everyone else. At first I couldn’t see anyone & then I saw my mum walk back into the ER teary-eyed & i remember thinking to myself, "Why is she crying?" I followed her in & found my tita sat next to my grandma & i remember feeling confused & I really didn’t quite understand what just happened. To be honest, even now that she’s been buried & all, it’s still hard to imagine that she’s gone. I don’t think it has really sunk in & i’m not even sure if it will truly sink in.

someone once told me that when you love someone, you accept them for everything that they are: the good & the bad. you don’t ask them to change who they are because you love them for who they are & not who you want them to be. i agreed: it was a very good theory. but theory’s all it’s going to be. after all, when you incorporate someone into your life, you unconsciously make changes to your lifestyle, you make changes to your priorities, right? because you’re not just thinking about you… you’ve also got to think of that other person in your life.

but yes, of course you still accept them for who they are until you really get to know them. It’s funny how love can bring out the best & the worst in people, innit? i mean, even if you’ve known someone your whole life, they’ll be quite different when you’re in a relationship with them. & without you knowing it, you’re changing… your interests, hobbies, even your personality.

When do the changes happen? after the fights & all the forgiving & forgetting & the promises to change for the better. but what if after all the changes you’ve made to yourself for your other half, you feel that it still isn’t enough? what if their not as happy as you’d thought they’d be? what do you do? how’d you feel? would you feel hurt? unappreciated? un-loved? would you call it quits? would you still try to change, trying to be perfect? what if, right?

now, i’ve got you thinking…..